[It has been on his mind and heart for several days-, no, weeks really, ever since he first entered Dong Zhuo's service. He could never forget what happened to Luo Yang, and while he did not have a direct hand in it, he hadn't stepped in to stop the atrocities in the city. It chills him a little, to consider his position if his family had been in the city at that time.
If tomorrow's battle is a deciding one, then Zhang Liao wishes to go in with no doubts. No regrets.]
I...was naive then. Perhaps I still am. I had thought that might was all that mattered, and that so long as I had might, I would be one step closer to my goal. But is it a goal worth fighting for when all that lies before me is chaos and destruction?
[His voice picks up a little in tempo and volume.] Tell me, Master Chen Gong; when you see me in battle, do you see a man? Or do you see a monster that loses himself in his blood lust? Do you see a warrior or a demon? How can a demon in battle protect those that he cares about? I fear I have lost my path, and the way back is shrouded in a darkness that my blades alone cannot dispel.
you have it way worse than me, that's for sure.
If tomorrow's battle is a deciding one, then Zhang Liao wishes to go in with no doubts. No regrets.]
I...was naive then. Perhaps I still am. I had thought that might was all that mattered, and that so long as I had might, I would be one step closer to my goal. But is it a goal worth fighting for when all that lies before me is chaos and destruction?
[His voice picks up a little in tempo and volume.] Tell me, Master Chen Gong; when you see me in battle, do you see a man? Or do you see a monster that loses himself in his blood lust? Do you see a warrior or a demon? How can a demon in battle protect those that he cares about? I fear I have lost my path, and the way back is shrouded in a darkness that my blades alone cannot dispel.