[...he's never really cared when the other lords ridiculed him for his merchant background, or that he came from a relatively backwater town when compared to some of the fancier northern cities. But this...this is something completely different entirely. His mind is still his own, as is his heart, his beliefs, but the thought of being forcibly changed, perhaps permanently, into a demon...
...maybe he still didn't care what others would think of him. But he cared a lot about what his children would say. And if Shang Xiang is the only one left, then she is all the more precious to him.
Demon or not, he will not survive if she rejects him.
So Chen Gong's reaction, as understandable as it is, does stir unrest inside Sun Jian. As his first human contact since his transformation began, Chen Gong already displayed tension, concern, perhaps even fear, at what's happening to him. It's a taste of things to come, of the bonds that could be broken, the ties that could be snapped forever, if Sun Jian does not escape before worse happens to him.
These thoughts run through his mind, but again he keeps them to himself. Rather, he decides to focus on Chen Gong's question; it's one that needs to be discussed, and it serves as a sufficient distraction from the unusual pessimistic thoughts that plague his mind. Granted this is an unusual situation...but still. He should be stronger than this.]
I think so. Though why they would want to turn humans into demons is slightly beyond me. It's taken Kiyomori six months to change my eyes. It would take far less to chop off my head. I fear that there is a bigger picture that I can't see.
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Date: 2014-09-19 12:49 pm (UTC)...maybe he still didn't care what others would think of him. But he cared a lot about what his children would say. And if Shang Xiang is the only one left, then she is all the more precious to him.
Demon or not, he will not survive if she rejects him.
So Chen Gong's reaction, as understandable as it is, does stir unrest inside Sun Jian. As his first human contact since his transformation began, Chen Gong already displayed tension, concern, perhaps even fear, at what's happening to him. It's a taste of things to come, of the bonds that could be broken, the ties that could be snapped forever, if Sun Jian does not escape before worse happens to him.
These thoughts run through his mind, but again he keeps them to himself. Rather, he decides to focus on Chen Gong's question; it's one that needs to be discussed, and it serves as a sufficient distraction from the unusual pessimistic thoughts that plague his mind. Granted this is an unusual situation...but still. He should be stronger than this.]
I think so. Though why they would want to turn humans into demons is slightly beyond me. It's taken Kiyomori six months to change my eyes. It would take far less to chop off my head. I fear that there is a bigger picture that I can't see.